in the past, i haven't felt truly comfortable or "at home" much - as a general statement with regards to the people i've known and the places i've been... that sense of 'damn, this feels truly good and right! this feels like me! this fits! this feels like home!' i have much more commonly felt an awkwardness, an alien sort of outside-ness...

however, i've considered myself to be responsible for this - in that to change it would mean to change something within myself or what i'm doing...

..because i believe that people gravitate towards similar people, "pull in" what they need, attract what they seek, get what they deserve. this has certainly been observably true in my own life and what i've seen around me...

so, necessarily, if i am drawing in things and people that don't really resonate or feel quite right, i haven't been really being ME - haven't been true to who i am in mindset or action...

in conclusion then, the more i am on track by staying as honestly myself as possible, the more on track i will resultantly be as i will harmonize with and bring about those situations and people and things that i need and are right and do feel like home. rather than searching away for home, i can simply bring it to me.

i am seeing this now because i think it has started to happen...

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