keep trying to add it up ~ endlessly perplexing equation ~ multi-dimensional variables pile on ~ calculations drive me ~ solutions taunt and tease me ~ disparate ~ dissonant ~ formulations of connections, meetings, exchanges, opportunities, strengths, weaknesses, talents, faults, potentials, blah ~ unknown quantities, unknown unknowns ~ grand unified theory? ~ paths begun, scattered around ~ unfinished spiral arms ~ fractal mind-fuck ~ chaotic, messy, yet ever-searching for perfection, beauty ~ spinning in circles ~ centripetal force, "center-seeking" ~ eternal return ~ moebius strip ~ perpetual motion ~ stasis or equilibrium ~ straining to hear the "music of the spheres" ~ fill up, download, shareware, outpour ~ replicate, represent, recycle, recreate, renew, resurrect, reincarnate ~ "re" round and round and round ~ keep trying to add it up