shaken from my reveries, i drove on more quickly to see where it was... i wanted to track it down. as the road winded around i could see it getting closer... moving towards that ominous glow. basic impulse - i wanted my camera. i was still a good 30 miles from my house but i had thoughts of going and getting it and returning as fast as possible... i wanted to capture it so badly.
desires confirmed and reinforced... when i came even closer to discover it came into clear view from the side of the freeway. looked over to my left... what a sight to behold. fire. pure uncontrolled raging fire... churning and consuming trees in an incandescent inferno. it was so vast - and right before my very eyes. the sparks blowing up were dangerously close... and i slowed almost to a halt, overwhelmed, taking it all in.
the way it lit up the black sky... like some section of a Hieronymus Bosch painting... eerie amber light in the surreal wee hours right before dawn. and nobody was around. 5 minutes after i drove past, i started to see the flashing lights of firetrucks starting to make their way over... one, two, three... many more.
i thought of shiva... the destructive force inherent to life, dancing eternally with the creative force of krishna. (we were just reviewing hindu philosophy in class this morning) fire, universal symbol of destruction. fire. element. consuming, powerful... and really amazingly beautiful, too.
i wonder where it was, exactly. seemed awfully close to the school i'm supposed to attend monday (tomorrow). maybe my school is on fire. hm.
dammit, dammit... i wish i'd had my camera.
ok, i've been awake for 24 hours or something... goodnight.