god, there is so much i could say here. so much i want to say. aside from what i have been DOING... the many adventures, the amazing sights, experiences, etcetera..... i have been having some very important realizations.
traveling is an incredible way to reflect and view one's life more objectively... or at least from different points of view. travelling is constant change and challenge... which are, of course, the ingredients for change and progress. so things have been shifting a lot in my mind... shuffling about... reconfiguring. probably even more than i am aware of at the present.
this is exciting, really... this is life. this is super-life... it almost takes the process of living and speeds it up and intensifies it. this can also be evidenced by the difference in the perception of time... here, hours are days and days are weeks... and yet sometimes i feel like i just began the trip the other day. time feels so strange, here...
these are the good things about travelling... about wandering about and seeing things and meeting people and just being a nomadic adventurer, basically. but the whole time, i am questioning it, too. a gentle questioning of its purpose... why am i doing this? why am i here right now? i wonder at the meaning of the trip... and i can only really guess, it seems.
i feel simultaneously very unsettled and very free. it's funny... when i am at home working a job or going to school, i ache to be out exploring the world. but out here, after days of just looking at things and meeting people... all this taking-in of sensation and beauty and just LIFE... i ache to MAKE something. i ache to BE something.
but this is youth, i think. this is the point of progression... i travel and i see the world and it clarifies my visions and intentions and ideas... fills me with inspiration until i burst and explode with art and music and aesthetics. my creative trickle will turn into a torrent... i can feel it.
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ok, enough stream-of-conscious babble into this expensive internet cafe computer....
back out into the night. still glowing slightly from the red, red, red sunset...