it is beautiful outside and i am enjoying it, connected with it...
my mind is relaxed and mellow, my thoughts are slow and light. the dark, self-cannibalizing mental state i was in before seems distant and out-of-place...
my experiences in the world and with people have been comforting and, rather than invasive and disorienting as i've sometimes found them, they've served to stabilize and center me... a revitalizing boon.
i feel love, without and within.
last night i sat in a bubbly hot tub with Bobby and Boris and watched meteors shoot and trail and explode across the sky as the woods murmured quietly around us and the city lights twinkled on the distant horizon. stayed up and hung out with Mike and his guitar. slept intermittently but cozily. drove the lovely drive down from the mountains and here to work...
even monotonous database work seems pleasant today. but i think i'm gonna take a break right now and go back outside into that pale golden winter sunlight, amongst the orange-leafed trees...