04.04.2002 12:07 am
tonight i went out just to be out...

i drove somewhere. i sat down somewhere. away from here.

there were people and sounds and things moving around me. it was cold and the wind was blowing...

and i felt like cobwebs were blowing out of my head.

i just sat. and looked. didn't even really think about much (relatively).

i felt good... clean... clear-headed. the future looked bright, again...

it was nice to be off and outside and free at that moment.

~

overall, i've had a really emotional and tumultuous and purifying day today. but externally i suppose it was quite "uneventful".

funny the mental torture i intentionally, if sometimes unconsciously, put myself through... in order to feel, experience, change... be alive.

i'm damn antsy. i cannot wait to be in florence and living that adventure. i need it... i can taste it... it will be so good for me. leaving soon - three fucking weeks!

i'm leaving... on a jet plane... don't know when i'll be back again...

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